Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate! It is a beautiful day here in Cali - about 70 degrees. I love to celebrate the holidays and make a big production out of them but haven't done much this year. I'm still pretty sick and missing my NY!! He was been extra sweet since he has been gone....think we miss each other just a little ;)

I have been on the job search for some time now and last Friday I found out that I will be receiving an offer for an amazing job!! It's a big promotion for me with great opportunity! I'm so excited....when I sent NY the e-mail that I received he sent me this reply -

You are so awesome! To be honest, I am quite jealous. You are a rock star and deserve every bit of this... You are so special, I wish you would just know that! And on top of that you are so goddamn beautiful and you are all mine! I love you so so so so much. I'm so happy for you tree tree.

I almost started crying....I was so touched that he thinks so highly of me....he always says it but something about this just really meant a lot to me at a time like this. He is sooo supportive with everything and it's so refreshing to finally have that support from my partner.

Have to share a few texts that make my light up and smile when I read them....I love getting texts from him :)

"The way my heart beats for you right now makes me crazy!!"

"I love you so hard and so deeply!"

"You redefine for me the phrase 'words cannot describe' bc its how I feel"

How could I not fall in love with him??

:)

Happy Holidays!

Hope everyone has a great holiday season!!

I've been soooo busy as usual....lol. Wanted to share this....we went out to dinner a few weeks ago to celebrate 3 months and he brought me these.... gerber daisies (my favorite) with a red rose....so pretty and thoughtful!

Right now he is in NY visiting his family for 2 weeks for the holidays. Already missing him lots and I'm still a little sad that we can't spend our first Christmas together. I pick him up on New Year's Eve....1 more week!! We talked about going out on New Year's Eve....I bought a fun dress and am really excited for it! For those that know me....I usually don't go out much or to big parties....just not my thing. But I'm really excited to go out and experience what NY is used to doing :)

NY updates :)

Yes, it has been a while for updates (as my one friend keeps telling me....you know who you are ;) but have been busy with life, work and photography lately.


Things could not be going any better with NY!!! We have had some serious, tough conversations but we can always talk through anything....sometimes it just takes a little longer ;) We can communicate with each other so well...just sometimes things get taken the wrong way - as it could in any relationship - but we always can talk through it and that is what is important!

We just love spending time together!!! Seems like there is always something going on but also time to just relax, cuddle on the couch and watch movies together (which usually results in me napping through part of the movie...oopsss!). I love resting in his arms....I feel so protected, secure and loved!

Since Thanksgiving was last week and his family is back east, he spent the day with my family. We didn't do the traditional turkey since it was only 5 of us - we opted for an Italian meal...being Italian and all we always love pasta! My Mom made her lasagna which was incredible! We were all stuffed after and fell asleep early that night....of course I left out the pumpkin cheesecake on the counter over night so I made sure we went and bought a new one first thing Friday AM. It was delicious! Then on Friday we went to the LA Auto Show.....he is a huge car guy (which I secretly love so he can take care of my cars for me...hehe!) and we both had never been to the LA show before. It was fun to walk around and check out the new concept cars and also dream about cars....lol. Saturday we met my family at the beach to do some family beach pics for Christmas cards and then of course I made sure to get a few of us taken.....love them! I finally left his place Sunday morning as I had a photo job and lots of editing pics for clients to do. After spending 4 nights at his place it was hard to fall asleep without him and I missed him!!

I am sooo incredibly happy with NY.....I can't even explain it! He sent me this text recently and I about died reading it....heart definitely skipped a beat!!

"When I'm with you, nothing else and no one else matters, I'm so in love with you and so overwhelmed with emotion when I look you in the eye"

Reading it again now make me smile so big :)

I saw this pic somewhere on-line and thought it was well stated.....

Awwww

I had to post this text message that NY sent to me this morning.....I'm still smiling!!

He texted me "you had me at ::shutterclick::"

....referencing the picture that I took of him at the car event that started it all :) We are both still so amazed how we met and how happy we both are.....I didn't think that it was still possible to meet a great guy out and about. My friends have been telling me for some time now that I would meet someone when I least expected it and I sure did! I'm more and more amazed every day.....happier and happier every hour!!

Still swept off my feet!

I'm still totally swept off my feet by NY!! He is just incredible in so many ways. We are always talking about how crazy it is that we met and how things have turned out. I'm a big believer that everything happens for a reason and I do believe that we were supposed to meet and be a part of each other's lives.

I have to share this....earlier today he sent me this message:

"You're quite possibly the most beautiful girl I have ever looked deep into the eyes of"

Take my breath away!!! Every day I am more and more amazed by this man....how genuine, supportive, sweet, fun and handsome he is!

Last week we took a long weekend trip together up to San Jose and San Francisco. We had a blast and no matter what we were doing we were laughing and having a great time :) He was so much fun to travel with and traveling with someone is a huge test for me.....it's important to me that we can travel well together since I would like to travel with my guy. We have so many great memories from this trip and we look forward already to our next trip....wherever that may be :)

Thoughts....

Just some random thoughts about life.....dating and how do they fit together. I've been talking with a friend lately about his dating situation....getting back together with one of his ex's who I thought he would be with forever. We've been friends for about 10 years now and know each other pretty well....he calls me out on things I never saw and I appreciate that from my friend :) We have been there for each other through some pretty rough times and I do feel that he will work it out with her....I hope they do as I know she makes him happy!

But at what point do we know or realize that other person is the one for us...the one that completes us? Do you trust your heart and lead with your heart for the risk of getting heartbroken?? Do you trust your gut feeling?? Everyone is different and I've always gone off my gut feeling but my heart is taking over my gut feeling.

Saw this quote and had to post it....

"Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in your heart that only love can fill"

~Anonymous

Best. Weekend. Ever.

I don't even know where to begin other then I have totally been swept off my feet by NY!!!!

We spent so much time together this weekend which is not normal for me....I usually like my space but this is sooo different! I just can't get enough time to spend with him....we both enjoy each other's company so much!! I know I've been excited in the past after a date or two with other guys....but this is off the charts!

Friday night he came down to pick me so we could go out to dinner. He actually met my parents which I hadn't planned or wanted just yet but it happened and went great. Both my parents said that he seemed like such a nice guy and my Dad liked his firm handshake....he's in with Dad....lol. So we went to dinner....my favorite Italian place....had an amzing dinner and some wine. What was the best part of dinner was that after we were done eating we just sat there on the patio and kept talking....there was no rush to leave and it was perfect! We then went to this Italian festival that was going on and it wasn't what I expected so we pretty much just walked through everything and left. We had our first kiss this night and it was magical! I serioulsy melted in his arms :)

Saturday I had some things to do during the day but I later went to meet him for a quick dinner and then we had planned on watching Serendipity the movie at his place. He had never seen it before and the movie reminded me of us....of how we met, the connection we both have and how we feel there was a reason that we met that night. Sunday we woke up and seriously just laid in bed...talked and kissed. It was the perfect Sunday morning...relaxing and being in the arms of him! He made me breakfast while I showered and it was delicious!! He is so thoughtful and always wanting to make sure I'm happy :) I had to go into work for a few hours so he drove me and then he went into work as well for a few hours. When he came back to pick me up he helped me decorate my desk for Halloween.....love that! He wanted to take me to dinner at one of his fav places and it was delicious!!! He just amazes me in every way possible! After dinner we went and sat by this firepit that was in the area and just talked...about life and how crazy everything has been since the day we met! I went on a few dates with PT and quickly learned that it wasn't there for me and red flags already approached....lol.

It is so hard to say good-bye to him when we leave each other...we are crazy but it feels so right and perfect! I just can't wait to be in his arms again....look into his eyes...feel the passion and connection that we have....and just enjoy every second of it!

He just sent me this text......

I. can't. stop. thinking. about. you.

Sweet does not even begin to describe him!!! But this cracks me up cause my blog title for this post has the periods between the words and I had typed that out before he sent me this text a few minutes ago.....we have the same quirks and appreciate them. It makes us who we are and we love that about each other :)

I know my friends will say something along the lines that he is young for me but I'm not going to live my life by what society says is age appropriate cause you can't put a number on what is exactly right for you. I know my friends are looking out for me and don't want me to get hurt but I'm not going to let someone pass me by and risk loosing the guy of my dreams!!

I don't think I have ever smiled this much and it's all because of him :)

New Work Stalker

It never fails….I have a new work stalker! Where do I even begin…..

My friend at work and also cube neighbor pointed out to me that this one guy was over in our area all of a sudden. We sit outside his bosses office and now stalker is always down there talking to him. I didn’t think anything of it until he sent me an e-mail that was work related (I’m now thinking he really didn’t need to send me the e-mail but it was an excuse for him to e-mail me). He was nice in the e-mail…said hope your day is going well or something like that so I replied and said the same back to him…..I would do that to anyone that e-mailed me. Well we e-mailed back and forth a few times….he added me on IM (we use IM within our depts.) and was messaging me like crazy that first day. I told him that I was kinda dating someone and he did not understand that. He later found me on FB that night and then I got sick with the flu so missed the next two days of work…thank god! Oh but he didn’t forget about me….lol!

He sent me a message on FB – “Hey doll :) U ok?? Not feeling so good huh?”

I replied with “I have the flu bad!”

He then later replied with “Aww so sorry :( If you are bored or if u feel works and I can cheer you up, let me know. U can text me (insert his phone number here)”

Really…..how much more direct can you be?? Yeah I never replied to that one! Then later that weekend he sent me another message on FB….oh and he was out of town for the weekend on a golf trip…and I know this cause he decided to share all this crap with me….lol. So the next message was “Hey u. Way over here and I just thought of you” Ummmmm can I say creepy??!!

So then of course when I was back at work the next week he had to IM and ask how I was feeling but I kept it short and made sure to mention that I was dating. He then said “well, you have my number so you can call me if you want”…..really?? Does that crap work on girls???

The next day my co-worker texted me as I was driving into work and said that stalker is outside smoking conveniently at the time that I would be coming into work….hmmmm! I told her thanks for the heads up!! Oh then later that day when I was leaving he was outside smoking again…..OMG! I can’t stand smoking or could never, ever date a smoker! So gross!

Then another day that week he comes over at 4 when he was leaving and asks me if I have seen his boss….what am I the office police and keep tabs on the managers now?? It was so random and awkward…I said nope I’ve been busy working…hahaa! What I really wanted to say is….ummm my back is to his door and I don’t have eyes on the back of my head so how would I know where your boss is?? Ugh!

Now that I know his voice and when I hear it and tense up…..haha….and I bunker down in my cubicle with no intentions of leaving to run into him in the hallways…..I really just want to crawl under my desk and hide!

Random Updates....

I've been sooo busy with life lately and haven't had much time to update. Been working too much and I went back to school so now I have commitments that come along with that. Plus I also have a side photography business and that has really picked up!! I love my photography though....lets me be creative and I'm just lost in my own world when I'm behind my camera :)

So....after being stood up by Lawyer has really made me realize that I shouldn't always believe what people or guys say to me. I usually give guys the benefit of the doubt and trust/believe them until they prove me wrong and then a whole level of trust is gone. Anyways, Lawyer viewed my profile online about 2 weeks ago (my profile is now hidden).....I couldn't believe that he had the nerve to view my profile again and if he forgot that it shows who viewed your profile then he's an idiot! Then about a week ago I had an IM from him from when I wasn't signed in and all it said was "How are you?" Seriously.....like I was going to reply to doufus! End of that....haha!

A few weeks ago I had a photography job for a big famous name car dealer in Newport Beach. It was a Friday night and I went straight from work. I was really excited but also nervous since I don't usually care for the Newport crowd. It was a great opportuinty for me to network though and promote my photography. It was a fun event....lots of cars...new and vintage so great photo opportunities....DJ....different vendors there with yummy food and drinks! So at one point I was outside taking some photos of the building since it was getting dark.....great lighting....and this car pulled up. The valet was out front and as he drove up I just got this different feeling.....he got out of his car and I snapped a quick photo of him ....don't know why I did since I usually don't do that. It was actually a pretty cool photo.....he smiled and actually walked over to me to look at the photo.....my first thought was crap, I got caught and now what? LOL! But I showed him the photo and we laughed and then he went inside to the party. I was busy buzzing around the party...doing what I was paid to do and spotted him a few times. We caught each others attention when he was waiting in line at the bar to get a drink with his friends. Later that night he walked over to me to talk to me just as two older women wanted me to take their photo but with their cell phone....yeah well I'm so used to my big nice camera it wasn't turning out right so it took forever for them to be happy with. He actually waited for a few mins and then we talked for a bit. I was actually nervous which is funny but we had some great connections. I didn't want to chat for too long since I was working this event but he asked me for my card and we said we would see each other later at the event here or there. Long story short....we have been texting ever since. He pretty much grew up on the east coast and last lived in New York so I'm going to call him "NY". He just moved out here a few months ago for his job which turns out to be pretty close to mine. I've already told him that I was dating someone but that it would be nice to be friends and get to know him. He is very respectful of that and I really appreciate it :) I wonder....were we supposed to meet....cause there is this energy about him that is different and draws us together.....

I do have a new work stalker but that deserves it's own post.....

Two dates last week....

First date was Friday for happy hour. We went to one of my favorite places for happy hour and he's new to the area so I told him I would choose then. We'll call him Art guy. Art guy works for a printing business locally and he had me e-mail him one of my favorite pictures and he had it printed on this metal which made the colors really pop! It is amazing and I love it! Don't love him so much....soooo not my type...older, 38, which is fine but he is so aloof and just spacey. Don't know how to describe it but there's no way for a second date. I couldn't wait for the first date to be over with....lol. Then about an hour after we left he sent me a text "already missing you" ......sweet but yeah not what I wanted to hear since I'm not into him. I need to tell him sorry, just not going to work out.

Second date.....where do I begin! I'm going to call him PT, short for Physical Therapist since he is a Physical Therapist :) Last week we had made plans to go out to dinner on Monday night, yesterday. But Friday I was going to be close to his home since my brother was getting one of his tattoo's finished....about 10 mins from where he lives. So I said....I'm going to be close to you, do you want to hang out for like an hour while my brother is getting his tattoo done? We made plans for a quick drink and meeting.

So I get to the restaurant where we are going to meet....and there is this cute guy standing outside on his cell phone. He totally smiled at me so I thought that was him....I walked up and said "hello" and he said hello back and was looking at me kinda funny....so I said "PT" and he said no....I had walked up to the wrong guy!!! I was so embarrassed but also laughing...I apologized and texted PT to let him know that I was there. A few mins later this random guy walks over to me and says "sorry" and I said there's no reason to be sorry, I'm the one that should be apologizing. Then he said "well I wish I was PT"....think my face turned bright red but awesome to hear that! One of my friends said I should have got his number for a back up....LOL!

PT gets there and we grab a table. Right at this time I'm getting texts from my brother that they had to stop his tattoo because he was bleeding too much and he was ready to go home....and I drove us up there. I'm frazzled cause I don't know what to do....I want to have my quick date as planned but also need to get my brother home. PT was concerned and said let's have a quick drink and then we'll go. So we were there maybe half hour...had great conversation and then left. He suggested that I take my brother home and that he would follow me down to where I live so we could hang out more and talk. We live 31 miles apart so not bad with no traffic. I was impressed that he suggested that but also happy :) Dropped off my brother and his girlfriend that was there and then I took us to a park that over looks the ocean. I love the beach and anywhere that you can hear the waves. I apologized again for how things turned out and how chaotic and frazzled I was but I was starting to relax after being there with him. We sat on a bench with a blanket and talked for hours!!! It was so comfortable and fun! We cuddled a little bit and then at 1:30 AM we were both really tired....didn't realize it was that late. We got up to leave and he kissed me...the most gentlest, sweetest kiss ever!

We kept in contact the rest of the weekend and then he wanted to cook me dinner last night so I went over to his place. Usually I wouldn't go to a guy's place that quick but I felt comfortable with him and that I could trust him. You just have to go with your gut sometimes. So I got to his place last night and he showed me some exercises for my back (I fell last year and hurt my back pretty bad) and he adjusted my hips for me since they are not level. This is causing some of my pain and problems. He really spent some time working on my back and it was great to learn some new things from him. He cooked me steak and rice for dinner....it was delicious! He plays the guitar so I asked him to play for me and he did! He's really talented....he can listen to a song and then just start playing it....that is so amazing to me. Then we just hung out and cuddled. He's so cute with all his random kisses.....He totally surprises me at the most random moments and will just kiss me....it's like time freezes and nothing else exists or is going on at that moment.....takes my breath away! He is so romantic!!

I was stood up.....

I was actually stood up by my first date....the Lawyer! Guess there is still a first for everything....lol. We only had plans for lunch on Saturday and where but no definate time. I texted him Saturday morning to ask what time worked for him and never heard anything back....still haven't heard anything from him. So I just stayed home and did some chores and what not....I'm so glad that we didn't have a set time..... I would have been waiting there like an idiot....oh I would have been pissed!

So then I went to meet my e-mail buddy later that night and it was good. He was soo skinny...I swear my thigh is bigger then his....just weird! We had a drink and just hung out....conversation was good and it flowed. But there's no "I'm dying to see him again" or anything like that. I'm assuming he felt the same way since I haven't heard from him either.....haha! Oh...and the shoes he was wearing...they were like these slipper/sandal things that I can picture a monk wearing or something......this is the closet picture that I could find to what he was wearing....except his were like two straps that criss crossed....really??

Sunday morning I got a text from FF saying he got called into work and couldn't go to the beach as planned. I believe that he got called into work but there was nothing said that he wanted to hang out another time so whatever. He's already texting me this morning and I'm kinda just like blah. He doesn't say much and when I ask him questions its just one word answers...so fine, why bother putting in effort.

So I went to the beach anyways....it was going to be a hot day out and figured I needed some me time after the dating crap. Well...one of my friends has been wanting me to meet a guy she knows and we were actually supposed to hang out a few weeks ago but I've been so busy it hasn't worked out. I posted a pic on FB of the beach and he commented on it so I text him to come meet me if he wanted to....and sure enough he was at the beach within an hour :) But 5 minutes before he showed up I got stung by a bee...first time I might add and it got stug on the inside of my left leg by my butt cheek!! I can only imagine what it looked like....some chick on the beach looking at her crotch but little did they know I was trying to get a damn stinger out of my leg! I went to ask the lifeguard if they had anything to put on bee stings and he said no, but then asked if he could look at it to make sure I got the stinger out....nothing like showing your inner leg to a hot 22 year lifeguard! Good times! So, yeah, as soon as he got there I had to go in the water to try to "numb" the sting since it hurt so bad. We were in the water like every 2o mins to numb my leg....poor guy! But of course, only my luck! At least we had some good laughs from it! But I did have a good time with him and see what happens....want to get to know him more.

I think I'm giving up on dating for now....see if anything comes my way but geesh, it's so annoying!!

Sooo behind in updating....

I've been so busy this past month and I have lots of updates....but not time for all of them right now so I will have to come back with details later.

But I do have 3 dates this weekend....in 2 days!! Crazy!!

It all started with meeting a guy....I'll call him FF (short for firefighter since he is one ;). He lives about 45 mins away which isn't bad but on our 2nd date he told me that he wants to date around and see what else is out there. I felt like we totally hit it off and he said he felt the same way too. But he said that dating exclussively makes it feel like a relationship....which I can see his point...but I said that there's nothing to rush. So I said fine, you go date other people and keep me in the loop but my wall is up now. So I've backed off texting him, etc and he's the one that does most of the work to keep in contact now.

So date 1 is lunch on Saturday.....I'll call him Lawyer (he is a lawyer and a model). He's 7 years older then me which might be what I need. More on him later.... but I'm the most excited for this date this weekend :)

Date 2 is hanging out later Saturday night....we've become e-mail buddies...which kinda annoys me. It's like shit or get off the pot and do something besides just e-mailing...lol.

Date 3 is with FF on Sunday...we're going to the beach. He wanted to hang out so I suggested Sunday since I was busy Saturday already....hehe! Plus it keeps it more like friends hanging out instead of prime date time.

I'll blog after this weekend....busy busy!!

Hulk = Never again!

So I just got home from meeting with Hulk for the first time in person....never again will I see him! Had to blog it right now so I didn't forget any of the comments he made although I doubt I would....

I was walking in the parking lot as we were meeting to get frozen yogurt. He was just getting out of his car and the first thing he says to me.....remember the first thing is "Yeah you are short!" SERIOUSLY dude.....that's the best you can come up with for the first time you see someone in person?? I laughed and said "It was clearly stated in my profile that I was 5'1". I laughed and thought this is going to be a long trip to the yogurt store. So then we sat outside eating our yogurt and he's talking about his tv and surround sound stereo he just bought. That's great and all....I'm sure it sounds really nice but I could care less. I did make a comment "boys and their toys"....haha!

Oh it gets better......

Conversation was painful....I don't think I've ever experienced that before....we totally had those awkward silences and I kept asking him questions but he would never ask me questions. Well I take that back....he did ask me a few and we had already talked about it. So it's obvious that he is meeting other chicks as well and couldn't remember who said what....haha!

Just wait for this one liner from him......

He has the nerve to say to me "You seem like you could be a brat!" WTF......really WTF???? What guy says that to a girl right when they meet them?? I laughed and I said "I really can't believe that you just said that to me!" He then tried to play it off like he meant it if I didn't get my way I would whine.....keep talking A-HOLE.....just digging yourself a bigger grave! I just kept laughing and said "You don't even know me".

Needless to say it was a quick yogurt trip.....and then he texts me already right after I got home and he says "You're funny" so I said "haha why?" and he said "you just are"

So my last reply.......

"Remember, I'm a brat"

LOL

Oh Boy(s).....

Where do I start?? Kinda have to catch up since I've been lagging about blogging. One of my guy friends told me about another online dating site that I haven't heard of....he said it's like the "underground cool dating thing" so I decided to give it a try since my winky site subscription ends this week and plus this one is free...bonus! I'll call this site "cupid"....not very unique since that is part of the name....lol.

I set up my profile fast on Saturday morning.....didn't even fill out everything. Started messaging with "bartender" Saturday night and hit it off. Didn't hear from him yesterday so I was like ok whatever and then today he messaged me and wanted to meet up this week. I'm calling him bartender since he is finishing up his degree and bartends right now. I'm not crazy about that but seems like a nice guy so far. So we are going out Wednesday night later....we both already have dinner plans that night so we're meeting up after dinner.

Then yesterday this other guy messaged me and we have been texting non-stop since. He has his sh*t more together then bartender and definitely seems more into getting to know me. I think I'm going to call him "Hulk" since he does work out like crazy and has huge muscles! I'm not into the huge, beyond belief muscles but his are still proportional. We are meeting tomorrow night for frozen yogurt....yummy!

Here's a re-cap of some of the messages I have received from the cupid site -

"Happy monday :). How hard was it to earn your MBA in finance?" (Really??? I don't even know where to start.....)

"Wow, so balanced..what a combination...accounting/finance and photography...that's so impressive. And you have a caring heart as evident by your rescue of those two animals. (At least he read my profile instead of just looking at the pictures....lol)

Whichever man you pick, he's unequivocally going to be so happy and lucky. Cheers!" (Sweet but kinda creepy??)

"Hi. I like your smile. : ))" (Nice.....but his profile pic is with his shirt off....taken in his bathroom mirror and obviously uses steroids.....gross!!)

"You get the adorable award. Just thought I'd share that with you. :)" (Well thanks! But I'm not replying)

"How are you doing?
I came across your profile and found that you are pretty unique than the rest of the pack. So I decided to send you a message.
How's this site working for you so far? Any luck?
Talk to you soon. " (Pack??? Haven't heard it called that before but pretty funny!)

I'm still chuckling....

I have my on-line profiles active just to see what's out there....not much from what I have seen so far but figured why not and it's something to do....lol. This guy just messaged me on the not so premier site and said....

Very beautiful!
How in the world are you still single??
So adorable!

I'm very tempted to thank him for the compliment and reply with "I'm very picky and there are a lot of idiots out there"

Do I dare.....

Happy Birthday to Me!!

I just turned 31 over the weekend and can't believe it's been over a year of this crazy dating life!! I've learned a lot over the past year....what makes me more happy, what drives me nuts in guys and what I can compromise on. I do feel that I am picky but I'm not going to settle.....there are things that are important to me and why should I slack on that?? Some people may be able to settle but not me. Life is too short to not be happy :)

Spell check....please!!!

Please, pretty please use spell check before you send me a message on these dating sites!! I figured I already have a subscription till August so why not let it run and see who contacts me.

Received this message....

"What you say we go out for a cup of coffrr :O)"

A Fireman...oh my!

This past weekend was my best friend's bachelorette party in Santa Barbara so it was a girl's weekend with wine tasting and going out! We sure did have fun :) We were out Saturday night and of course everyone is telling me to go up to guys and talk to them since I'm single.....so not my thing to do though! I'm not that type of girl. Well there was this one hot guy in a hat that I pointed out and I still wouldn't go up to him to talk. He actually came up to me and one of my friends and starting talking to us about pictures....we were looking at all the pictures from the weekend on my camera. The rest of the girls were at the bar having fun and we were content sitting at our table people watching.....we're so exciting...haha! I felt awkward since my one friend was sitting right there and I get nervous!! He didn't stay long and eventually they went to the bar to talk to the rest of the group.

I guess he was asking about me to my friends and eventually they convinced us to go to the bar and hang out...so we did. We made flirty eye contact and took fun pictures of everyone. He was getting ready to leave and gave me a hug....I gave him my photography business card and said "If you want to see the pictures then contact me" :) Good quick thinking...lol. Well, the next day he found me on FB and sent me a message....needless to say now we are messaging back and forth on FB :)

Downside = he lives in Bakerfield!!! I live in Orange County....hours apart....LOL! So it looks like I made a new friend that lives far away...but a very hot, firefighter friend I might add ;)

Back to single.....

Well....long story short....I was having a lot of anxiety going to Maui next week with TBD Italian....things have been dwindling for me and I just wasn't excited anymore. I didn't feel that it was fair to go on a vacation to a romantic island and waste both our time and money. I told him that I didn't want to go and that it wasn't fair to him to go when I knew I wouldn't have fun and enjoy it the way it should be enjoyed. Plus....the thought of 5 full straight days with him did not sit well with me....a sign it's not meant to be. We talked in person and he said that he understood if it wasn't there for me...that he was sad and hurt. I feel bad but I don't want to lead him on, especially since he already told me that he loves me.

So now I'm concentrating on my career. Summer is here and I plan to enjoy it with friends and family :)

I'll keep you posted on funny stories...whenever they occur :) Happy Summer!!!

I Love You??

Last Monday, the 13th, was 3 months dating for TBD Italian and I. He had planned a special dinner out and got me gorgeous flowers from a florist by his house. When he gave me the flowers he said "I love you" to me.....I was in mid hug anyways so I finished with the hug and didn't say anything back. Really....already?? When the first 2 months all he wanted to do was take things slow and now this at 3 months....I don't get it. I didn't know what to say or do at the time so I just left it alone. After dinner I told him that I was sorry that I didn't say it back but I didn't want to say it if I didn't mean it.....that I'm just not at that place.

We are going on vacation together in a week and a half...to Maui which will be beautiful!! I'm just not feeling all lovey dovey like he is so vacation will be interesting. I'm looking forward to sitting on the beach, relaxing and reading while listening to the waves crash on the sand. I hope he likes to read too....LOL!

Dream....

So I had this weird dream over the weekend....it was that I was still dating TBD Italian but then he went and married some other girl when we were together?? Dreams are very interesting to me...maybe because my undergraduate degree is in Psychology and we studied dreams a little....but something about this dream just doesn't sit right with me. I do believe that most dreams are a part of your unconscious mind and do mean something...a lot of debates have been had about dreams and everyone is entitled to their own opinion....this is just my opinion based off what I have studied and personal life with my dreams.

I'll never know exactly what this dream meant but only will have my own thoughts/analysis of it :)

Updates...been too long!

It's been way to long since I've posted but lots has been going on! TBD Italian and I are still going strong....been over 2 months since our first date :) It seems like it has been longer and even a few of my friends have said the same thing! He is the absolute sweetest guy ever! I have met all of his family, which is amazing, and he has met mine as well. We spend the weekends together and it just flows so well.....going out, errands, family events, etc. I usually like my free time or alone time during the week to do my own thing....girl time, time with my pets, etc but I really miss him during the week and want to see him....I know it's something special when I can give up some of my weekday time :)

So a few Saturday's ago, he got up before I did and woke me up with this paper mache flower that he brought to me in bed! I thought it was so cute but then he said there was a surprise inside and he had written the most thoughtful things about me inside! I have included a picture of the flower and then typed out below what he said....he would probably kill me if he knew 1) about this blog and 2) that I posted pictures and typed out what he wrote.....but I thought it was so special I had so share....I got teary eyed and it makes me smile so big every time I read it!

Here it is:

T – is for your touch, so compassionate and tender, it brings us closer together.

H – is for your heart, so full of love and understanding, it is seen in everything.

E – is for your eyes, both beautiful and captivating, I could look into them forever.

R - because it feels so right when we’re together no matter what we’re doing or where we are, the closeness shines through.

E – is for every second, of every minute, of every day that I think about you and the memories we’ve shared and the one’s we’ve yet to create.

S – is for your smile, which lights up a room and leaves me breathless and makes my heart skip a beat.

A – is for the amazing woman you are, so beautiful and gorgeous. There are not enough words to express how lucky I am and how much you mean to me.

La-la land

Oh where to begin.....so in la-la land with TBD Italian! We talk all the time, spent this past Friday night and Sunday night together....it just feels so right :) Even if we are just watching a movie or out we have so much fun together! We are always laughing...he has the best personality and sense of humor...we were talking yesterday how he can be himself and joke around...and how I can dish it right back to him ;)

I'm meeting his sister and two nieces this coming weekend.....meeting his family is a huge thing for him! So I know it's going really well if he is introducing me to his family already! He already invited me to his nieces first communion on May 1st! He says he is not a planner but he really is ;) Always planning dates for us and so thoughtful about everything! He is open about his feelings and always saying the sweetest things to me! We text in Italian...well a few words here and there...but he always calls me "Bella" which is beautiful in Italian! Makes me melt every time!! He sent me this text this morning -

"Buongiorno bella ;) Hope you have a great day off. Cant stop thinking about you ;) Miss you."

How sweet is he??

Friday Night Date!

Just following up on the from Friday night with TBD Italian...I really need to come up with a name for him since I have a feeling I will be blogging about him a lot :) So we went and saw a movie before dinner which was fun! He's so sweet and a total romantic! he made reservations at Palm Restaurant which was amazing! We both had filet steaks for dinner....amazing food, fun atmosphere and had a great time! Then we went to the Laker game with one of his work customers (he's in sales). The company he works for has season tickets to the Laker games in the 5th row....incredible to watch a game from that close. It had been a long day so we went home after that. Then on Saturday night he came down and met my family....meeting the family is a big thing especially in Italian families! My younger brother was in town visiting so we went out with him and a few of his friends and had a blast! He has such a great personality and is so easy going :) He makes me smile!!!!

Curious.....always a good laugh!

So Curious messages me on fb to say hello so I say hello back....then he says something confusing...like he hints at things....so I told him to just say it since I don't get it....and this is what he says..... "like I like you, and I suppose I lust for you, but I know it won't work, and that's what confuses me the most" Oh boy!

TBD Italian :)

So...anyone have a good name for TBD Italian?? I'm open for suggestions :)

So, tonight is our Laker Game Date!! We're both so excited! We had dinner last Monday night as planned and had a blast as usual! Spent a little over 2 hours at dinner talking and just enjoying each other. We then walked around after for a bit and then I finally said about 9:00 that I needed to go home and get some sleep....we had met up right after work! This was our third date and we finally kissed...just on the lips but that was good enough for me! He is so sweet, gentle and passionate!!! I love his gentle kisses.....and he always kisses me on the forehead...makes me melt everytime :) We ended up having a quick lunch on Wednesday, which was his actual birthday so I got to give him a birthday kiss :)

So, back to our date today! We're meeting soon to go up to LA early...beat the traffic....and go see a movie first. He already made dinner reservations before the game and it's a surprise....I have no idea where we are going! It's so cute how he plans everything...and so much fun too! After dinner we'll be off to the Laker game....I have a feeling he's going to turn me into a Laker fan....lol. It will be a fun/busy day and night but I'm sure it will fly by with him :)

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Curious just doesn't get it....

I don't know how to word it any better.....he messaged me this morning saying how he knows that I don't lust over him.....yup! That is true my friend....no lust there for him! Oh then he asked me if I was dating anyone so I said "I've been on a few dates"....haha! Stay tuned for more stories from him....always something!

3 Dates in 1 week....whew!

I figured why not?? I'm not looking for something serious right of the bat so why not go on 3 first dates in 1 week....plus it would make for good blogging ;) It's not something that I would normally do and it's still weird to think about it but it was fun! It sure did make for an exhausting week and trying to keep up with it all...the texting, who wants to go out when, what I've talked about with each guy....lol.

So, the first date was on a Monday night. We'll call him "Eye Doc" since he is an Optometrist. We hadn't planned on meeting that night....been texting over the weekend....and he wanted to go see a movie that night. Not your typical good first date thing to do but I figured why not....lol. We met for coffee before and chatted. Watched the movie and he walked me to my car after...said good night and off we went. Texted that week....kept in touch. But here's the weird thing....so that Saturday he texted me in the afternoon and asked what I was doing. I told him I was busy with a photography client (I do photography on the side....) and then I met up with some friends to grab a quick dinner after. He then asks again what I was doing...so I said going home cause I had a sore throat and then he says "Oh well I was going to invite you over to watch a movie"......really, just be a man and if you wanted to try to make plans then ask up front....don't keep asking what I'm doing and then when I'm busy say you were going to ask me out....I was annoyed. So we still have not met up again....just texting here and there....I let him contact me and see if he actually gets the nerve to ask me out. His birthday is today so "happy birthday eye doc"

Second date was that Friday (had a few days off in between to do other things and catch up on sleep...lol). I'll call this guy"UK boy" since he is from London...which makes for a very nice accent ;) We had tried to meet up the week before and had planned 2 dates before but he got sick and kept canceling on me. We finally met in person and my first thought was OMG...he's soooo short! Now, I'm short, 5'1" and for me to say a guy is short, he is short! I was wearing flats too and he was maybe, maybe 3 inches taller then me?? Usually this is not a big deal for me but it kinda is....lol. Dinner was good.....he talks a lot and I have to really pay attention to understand everything with his accent. Night was good....walked to our cars and off we went from there. We've talked a few times but have not met up again yet. I figured I should at least give them all 2 dates and then decide if I'm really interested. He actually called me today and I still need to call him back....I'll do that when I'm done blogging :)

Third date was Sunday of that week.....can't think of a name for this guy...he is a full blooded Italian so "TBD Italian" for now....lol. We went to dinner...hit it off and before we knew it, it was almost 3 hours later! Both of us being Italian we had a lot to talk about :) He was even cuter in person too....dressed nice and I remember when I first saw him, my first thought was wow! He is very sweet and traditional which is great! We then talked about going to Disneyland since he has a pass as well and went the following Wednesday...he took the day off work :) It was so sweet that he did that....it was a great day and we had a ton of fun....so comfortable. We were a little cuddly but still no kiss.....I made sure no kiss yet. We text all the time and had plans to go out tonight but I wasn't feeling well so we changed plans to dinner this coming Monday. His birthday is Wednesday (what is it with me meeting guys and their birthdays are right around the corner??) so we're celebrating early and then he invited me to the Laker game next Friday already. He's a huge Laker fan so it should be a lot of fun!

I'll keep you posted of what happens....but if I had to pick one right now to date it would definitely be TBD Italian :)

No More.....

As of today, my subscription expired on the premier dating site......not bummed about it actually. There hasn't been anyone that I'm interested in so I haven't been on it really. It's funny how they sent me an e-mail this morning saying today was my last day and to renew now....lol.

So, sticking with the winky site and see what happens from there :)

WOW!

I'm still laughing! So, I was going through the daily matches that the "wink" site sends you and guess who pops up......Apples!!! It gives you little thumbnail pictures and when I first saw the 5 for today I immediately thought....OMG....is that who I think it is?? Sure enough it was! His profile talks about how he's over the games, wants something serious, blah, blah. I had to tell my boss since we always get good laughs over the guys on-line and her response was "Maybe he knows what he wants now"....I couldn't have laughed harder! Since that was the excuse that he gave me was that he doesn't know what he wants....why couldn't he just be honest (like his profile says) and just tell me that it wasn't there for him??

I swear, guys are just flat out idiots sometimes.....well, maybe most of the time ;)

Loser!

So one of my girlfriends who is on the not so premier site sent me a link to this guy's profile and her subject to me was "loser on (not so premier site)". I about died reading his blurb or crap of a profile. I was only going to copy and post part of it but to get the full effect of the crap he wrote I'm going to post all of it :)

Enjoy a good laugh as I did!

Oh, and it still baffles me how you do not click on "SPELL CHECK" before you publish your profile.....one of the most annoying things to me!!!

One last thing to add (and don't forget he is on a dating web-site), he isn't seeking a relationship or any kind of commitment.


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So heres the newest profile I have, I went back and edited the whole thing and trust me when I say Including all the idiotic things that this site offer (In other words idiot people) I had to include it all and make sure it is mentioned so when you don;t take the time to read my profile and send me something stupid it would be an open invitation for me to un-leash my powers of “I don;t give a damn about your tiny ass feelings”.

I AM AN ASS TILL YOU GET TO KNOW ME THEN I AM SWEET.. SO SUCK IT UP I DON;T TRUST EASILY.

A. if you have no idea what you want from me or for yourself, don’t bother messaging me and go look for a consulor to help you figure it out. I am CLEAR. I don;t want a relationship nor kids.
B. some COWARDS on here will send me a message ****ing about my profile then block me or even delet their account, if you do that you might want to grow some balls and face me and see the outcome.
C. my best friend is a girl so if you have a problem with that don’t message me, she has been around longer than you will ever have and she knows me more than you will ever do, so she takes priority.
D. I am not here to hook up, for a Love relationship nor any form of a relationship that is gonna put me in hand cuffs and call me prisoner… I am here for friends…. Now since this might be a bit confusing to some of you on here who barely graduated High School or have not even graduated that so let me say in your terms...YO....I Ain’t Relationship Material....Got me Homie?....
E. If your looking for sex ask me up-front I hate beating around the bushes... Most likely the answer would be let me get to know you first... and Don;t send me naked pictures of you I don;t care about them.
F. I am sick and tired of people thinking that they can chage me, YOU will NOT be able to change me no matter what you do... So what I say here is true to the T... if you choose not to believe it...it’s your own DAMN fault.
G. Do Not start your conversations with pick up lines like these it’s STUPID (I Wish I can add a link to their profiles so you can see them):
1. Roses are red, Bud Lights are blue, When I get drunk I start to like you (Jen).
2. How much does a polar bear weight? Just enough to break the ice (Kathy).
3. You and I should get jerseys, cause we’d make a great team (Megan)
4. Add to the one above...But yours would be better cause your out of my league (Susie).
Don;t use sh*tlike this be normal... OHHH WAIT.... Who am I kidding this site is FAR FAR away from normal.
H. If your picture shows that you have not been off the couch for a while that is a sure hint for you not to email me at all, I have no desire in rolling you up or down a hill.
I. I consider myself honest to no end, I will tell it as it is no matter how much your sensitive feelings are gonna get hurt, someone gonna tell you it.
J. If you have fallen into your Mum’s make up box don;t email me, I find it very scary to be walking around with a female clown.
K. I ma fit so I am looking for a person that can keep up.
L. I am sarcastic suck it up, if you can;t handle it it is not my fault.
M. If you have kids and you say on your profile that they take up alot of your time.. then why are you on here? and why are you gonna waste my time? cause most Single Mum’s I know they want a Baby daddy and I ain;t it.
More to come I am sure

If you think I have a horrible writing style, then you are right but think about this, I speak 3 different languages that many of you think that they are too hard for your little brain to comprehend, and english is the last one of them so Hmmm.... I am all-ready ahead of you in the education game, Your falling behind all-ready.

Of course....

Why is it that guys I'm not particularly attracted to contact me and then their friends are hot??

Always happens.

The Science of Single...

So I just started reading this book called "The Science of Single".....It's basically about this women in her early 30's and her dating adventures. I'm still at the beginning but I'll let you know if there is anything interesting. But how appropriate.....

Randoms.....

Randoms....is that even a word? It is now for me :) Just a few updates and thoughts in this crazy dating world or lack of it by my choice. No more of the not so premier dating site....I've decided that site has not been working in my favor....lol. The premier dating site expires in a week or so and I've decided I'm not renewing that one either - not much going on there and the guys are just odd. I did join a new one for a test run and after that no more on-line sites....haha! This one you can send 'winks' to each other and messages......some guys are so clueless! Oh and it's hilarious to see the same guys on there as well as on the not so premier site.....and of course they contact you on both. I mean really, if I didn't reply to you on the other site what makes you think I will reply to you on this site? And if you can't remember who you have contacted.....you must be messaging by the hundreds! LOL!

To the dumbass who keeps winking at me.....stop, please stop! If I don't respond and send the "no thanks" get a clue :)

Prince Charming....

Just saw Prince Charming walk by at work....he's so nice to watch walk by :) LOL

Happy Valentine's Day!

Today is one of the Hallmark love holiday's.....but not so much love going on. I ended things with DD....he is such a sweet guy and he was totally into the relationship but I just wasn't happy. I didn't feel it was right to drag it out and didn't want to hurt him anymore than I know I did. I feel so bad but after two months I knew that it just wasn't for me. I hope he finds someone who is into it just as much as he is....he does deserve it!

I'm not in any rush to date again.....I'm kinda over dating at this point. I'm tired of it and everything that goes along with it.....lol....well at least right now I am. I still have hope to one day find that special person and be totally in love!

Hope everyone has a fun Valentine's Day......I'm looking forward to spending some time with my dog and catching up on some recorded tv shows....nice mellow, relaxing night :)

New stalker in the "stalker" category on fb??

So I think it's almost time to move Curious to the "stalker" group on FB. Every time he's on he's always messaging me and it's getting old.....if I wanted to talk to him I would message him....duh! We'll see if he keeps bugging me in the next few days and decide from there :)

Surprise Date was fun!!

DD took me to this great place in Newport.....they have this outside patio area...lots of lounge chairs, fire pits, neat patio lights, heaters and great people watching! That was the main reason we went there...to people watch all the cougars and the rich old men....it was just hilarious! We each had a glass of wine and some snacks while we just hung out and enjoyed each other's company.....with lots of laughs provided by Newport's finest cougars!

Things have been busy lately....I'm in the middle of changing jobs with other stuff going on as well. The weather is really nice here for January...in the 70's! I hope to spend some more time outdoors this weekend with DD. Last Sunday we got lunch and went to the harbor and had a little picnic...we took my dog as well which was fun :) We have some fun plans this week and weekend so I'll make sure to post those!

Surprise Date :)

I'm so excited for tonight! A few days ago DD said that he wanted to take me out this weekend and surprise me....I've been really tired from our trip and had a headache for a few days so he said this weekend when I feel better he wanted to take me out....I love it when a guy actually takes the initiative to plan something! He continues to be so sweet and caring! I love looking at all our pics from our NY trip and remembering all the fun times and laughs we had :)

Happy New Year!!

DD and I had a great Christmas together....I met the rest of his family which was really nice and fun! There sure are a lot of cousins though so I had to keep asking who was who and where did they belong on the family tree....I swear I need a diagram to keep track! The long weekend did go by fast but we did have a great time!

We spent New Year's in New York for my Grandfathers 95th birthday! Oh course we were crazy and did times square but went to a party that was indoors so we stayed warm :) We had some great people watching that night!! We did some fun touristy things and walked everywhere....I'm still tired and trying to catch up on sleep!

Hope everyone had a great New Year's as well :)